Wednesday, February 04, 2009

Processing: The Pursuit of Happyness Edition


Agent San Francisco: ikaw, how are you? kumusta ang bkk?

Agent BangCock: i'm ok... i realized last night that i'm happy and satisfied with my life... surprising coz i've always been restless

Agent BangCock: last night it just dawned on me that i'm feeling serenely happy OR happily serene these past months

Agent San Francisco: winner naman ang realisation na yan

Agent BangCock: i know! hahahaha. weird nga. i don’t know where it came from

Agent San Francisco: ang basic question pa e, how did you end up in the mode of thinking?... as in u asked yourself?

Agent BangCock: wala lang... i was looking at the painting on my wall and the thought just came into my head... "hmmm... i'm actually happy and contented after years of restlessness". yun lang

Agent San Francisco: ay kaloka. when will i have that moment kaya?

Agent BangCock: baka it would dawn on you in SFO

Agent BangCock: or maybe coz you don’t think of happiness... you don’t even have to will it... it just happens.

Agent BangCock: you need to be calm for once to listen to your self, i guess

Agent San Francisco: maybe maybe maybe

It just happened on its own.

For the first time in years I'm free of the need to have something to look forward to.

For the first time in years I wholly appreciate the present and can truly be content with it.

Perhaps it has something to do with feeling settled in BangCock, of the certainty that I don't need to be any where else right now.

Perhaps it has something to do with the comfort of having really genuine friends in the city... and beyond (Star Trek isdatchyu?).

Perhaps it has something to do with the balance that I've achieved in many aspects of my life and that makes me feel more whole.

Oh, it might even be just hormones.

5 comments:

[G] said...

ganon? na reach mo na ang nirvana? pwes, magka boyfriend ka sana soon! chos.

Lyka Bergen said...

Tama nga si Edith. If we'd stop trying to be happy, we'd have a pretty good time.

fuchsiaboy said...

kumain lang sya ng carbs kaya sya happy.

kawadjan said...

g: naku, i don't want to complicate my life anymore. i only think of you and shudder at the chaos that is relationships. bleh!

lyka: naman!

donita: or too much Lays?

Was Once said...

I though I would pass you an old favorite saying,
that I think you would like to adopt:
"My idea of roughing it is going without room service!"

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