Friday, February 23, 2007

Guess Where This Is

Oh my God! I received the acceptance letter to a masters program abroad that would commence in September this year.

I'm not going into the details yet coz I don't want it to be jinxed.

Besides, there are still a lot of things to do before it becomes final. A huge, huge part of everything pushing through rests on my current office.

I need monstrous luck right now.

Monday, February 19, 2007

More Watching

My weekends have become unbearably predictable.

I went to Quiapo last Saturday to scour some DVDs and supposedly proceed to Binondo to catch any New Year celebrations the Tsinoys had. I only accomplished the first part of the plan though. I stayed too long at the DVD stores that when I came out from the maze of shops it was getting dark already. So I decided to start the long ride home instead.

With that done, I spent the entire weekend watching movies, thus virtually saying goodbye to my social life.

Friday evening I watched Friends With Money, starring Jennifer Aniston and a group of other more mature actresses (i.e. Frances McDormand, Joan Cusack). The movie simply came with those 8-in-1 DVDs so I watched it na rin. Surprisingly, I was quite entertained by it. Foremost, the actresses are astounding as a group of girlfriends trying to make sense of their relationships. The film also owes a lot to its astute writing for keeping it upbeat and witty. So this film gets three bamboos.

I finally saw Marie Antoinette by Sophia Copolla. I did not have high expectations from the film given the wide disgust critics have for it. I'm not sure what exactly Miss Copolla's intention was for the film, but for me it came out as a two-hour long music video. The photography was very fluid and energetic; the set was very lush and opulent (of course); the costumes were rich and luscious; and the music… ah, the music was pure, astounding irreverence (think of having an 18th century ball with rock music). It was enjoyable to watch if one is out for a ride of the senses, but it ends right there. For some depth and historical perspective about the French royalty before the revolution, I suppose you can learn more from looking it up on Wikipedia. The film deserves only two bamboos.

I've always been surprised at the odd films one can find in pirated DVD shops. One interesting movie I stumbled upon in Quiapo is No Regret, by Korea's first openly gay director, LeeSong Hee-il. I assume this movie is fairly new because it's not on IMDB yet. It tells the story of a rather cliché set of characters - the poor barrio boy in the city who becomes a prostitute (played convincingly by the luscious Lee Yeong-hun) and the gay businessman trying to find true love while his parents are marrying him off. So Lino Brocka and Mel Chionglo noh? The clichés stop right there though as what beneath it is a complex story of the relationship between the two. The viewer is spared of any melodrama, instead it reveals well-developed characters and a story that is poignant. I'm not sure however about its glacial pace (so typical of Korean films I realized) although it gives you enough time to contemplate the story and understand more the characters' despair and alienation. Except for the rather odd ending, it's a satisfying movie, which earns it three and a half stars.

I also saw The Last King of Scotland, a much praised film for its main actor Forest Whitaker. All right, it's another film about a third-world despot. Perhaps what makes it different however is that while all other films about dictators portray them as power-hungry bastards, this one shows the president as short of crazy. While it has great intentions of showing the mind of a tyrant, it misses in giving a full-rounded character of President Idi Amin, including his motivations, his fears, his thought process (the last one he almost completely lacks). Instead, it fell into portraying a caricature. As a Scottish doctor visiting Uganda, James McAvoy (as Nicholas Garrigan) was noticeably adept and the character was better written. I'm giving the movie three bamboos.

I learned about Fateless in Jay's blog and I was quite pleased that I found it in Quiapo. I was thinking, oh no, another Holocaust film! But really, after watching the film I think this horrifying moment (among others) in recent history should never be forgotten, thus more movies about it should be made. The film follows the experience of a fourteen-year-old Hungarian Jew, named György Köves (Marcell Nagy), during the Holocaust. It shows one boy keeping a semblance of motivation to live in such atrocious times. One part of the film discusses about man needing a life-giving obsession to keep their hope alive; it is that drive that Gyorgy nearly lost but he trudged on, which makes the it an inspiring piece of filmmaking. Four and a half bamboos.

Another interesting DVD I saw in Quiapo is a collection of Gong Li films. Ahh, Gong Li, who can resist her? The cover said the DVD has Raise the Red Lantern, but typical of pirated DVDs the film is nowhere inside it. So I settled for To Live (Yimou Zhang, 1994), touted as China's Gone With the Wind. Set in the 1940s and the next three decades, it follows one family's struggle during China's tumultuous history duing the said period. I'm not sure about the film though because there were just too much crammed into it. Chopseuy!!! It had its poignant and funny moments, but in the end I felt like I was watching a TV soap. Read: intoxicating and all over the place. Gong Li and You Ge (the latter winning in Cannes for his acting in the film) were excellent however. So only three stars for this one.

Photo Credit: (1), (2), (4), (5), and (6) from Rotten Tomatoes; (3) Selaplana.com

Friday, February 16, 2007

Showgirl

I heart Vina Morales.

When I was in high school I was watching a talk show that had her as a guest. I used to loathe her but that interview totally changed everything for me. She appeared very meek and grounded. And she is amazingly pretty. Since then I have been sort of following her closely.

She is one reason why I watch that mess of a show called ASAP on Sundays. The bitch can dance and sing like Beyonce, Britney, and Janet Jackson… rolled in one. When I was in college, I sneaked into ABS-CBN alone to catch Vina on ASAP. After the show, I milled around backstage, hoping to see her. Finally, I caught her walking briskly to the parking area, carrying her bags (as in no yaya), all sweaty after the show. She appeard short, but that lean body she has on TV looked incomparable in the flesh. I wonder if, like Madonna, her body fat index is also zero. And that face, sigh, she just is luminous.

An old Cebuana fan stopped her in the middle of the hallway to ask for an autograph. Also speaking in Cebuano, Vina complied and made a bit of chitchat with the fan. As in ang bait!!! It could've been my chance to tell her of my adoration but I was totally awestruck. I just stood there as my heart melted.

My friends regard it as a joke that I heart Vina (right Sarah?). They call her baduy. Basta deadma.

Next Saturday, she would have a repeat of her concert, Showgirl. I'm so dying to watch it. But I need to prostitute my self first before I can buy tickets. Shucks, I would give anybody the blowjob of his life if he can only give me front-row tickets to Vina's show.

I also heard she is on Flor de Luna, a new soap on ABS-CBN. I think indeed it is time to buy an antenna.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Bangungot

"Would you ever do it with a girl?" I get this question quite regularly from friends. And I always answer it with a resounding NO WAY repeated fifty times. I often throw the question back to them; say if it were a male friend, I would ask him if he would do with a man as well. It's exciting to see the repulsion that immediately show on their faces.

That is exactly how I feel about having sex with a woman, total repulsion to the nth power. Like, I don't even have any idea how to touch a woman's body. Where do I start? And how do I fondle those monstrosities hanging from their, ugh, chest? I'm not even going to think about handling that thing down there that looks like a rotten piece of tahong. As in yuck, yuck, yuck, sabay suka on the side.

Two nights ago, I had the most major nightmare in recent memory. I dreamt that I was having sex with a woman - a classmate from high school. It's astoundingly graphic; totally detailed, I cannot even muster the bravado to describe it now.

I told Sarah and Ally about the nightmare and they gave me the same "analysis". Both said that I'm a repressed heterosexual; that deep beneath my subconscious is a straight man waiting to come out of the closet. Duh, like they're psychologists now ha.

Having been gay since god knows when, I'm so super sure that I'm gay through and through.

Wait, I did have a heterosexual stage. My first crush was a girl classmate in kindergarten. All the way through the early years of grade school I was attracted exclusively to girls. The first time I had a major crush on a boy was in Grade Five and I never looked back ever since.

Sarah and Ally, did u read that? EVER SINCE! Bading ako. Bayot. Binabae. Bakla.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Eight Things I Love About the MRT

  1. Climbing the stairs. Most people rush to the elevator or escalator but I choose the stairs. With their height it's the most that I can do for my daily exercise.
  2. Listening to other people's conversations. Oh my god, I have heard more than one person's entire life-story broadcasted for everybody's listening pleasure.
  3. Searching for cuties. Lately though I haven't seen much, I don't know where they are.
  4. Reading the newspaper of the person beside me.
  5. Looking at the billboards. They're crazy, outrageous, and cheeky. Always a pleasure to see what kitsch advertisers can come up with.
  6. Listening to other people's music on their iPod. I wonder how they don't go deaf after the blasting music.
  7. Watching the varying skyline with the sunset/sunrise as backdrop. And the smog... it makes the sunset/sunrise more dramatic.
  8. Thinking.

Photo Credit: The Guardian (UK)

Monday, February 12, 2007

Kiss

All the papers today seem to have the same photos in the front pages. I'm not talking about those clowns pretending to be the leaders of the country and their squabble for a seat in the national circus called the Senate. I'm referring to the pictures of couples locking lips last Saturday evening for the Lavapalooza at the Mall of Asia. From our apartment, I saw the magnificent fireworks that lit the sky at around midnight, which I suppose meant that the kissing has commenced. I heard they broke a world record that night. Cute.

Oh well. The Lavapooza indicated that Valentine season is on full blast. Argh. Not because I'm bitter, but I'm not really a fan of this season in particular (together with Christmas). Again I find it too commercialized and over-rated. That's my own opinion of course. If majority people find it worth celebrating in their own way, it's totally something that they can handle themselves. It's going to be another regular day for me, except perhaps that I'd go home much earlier so I can avoid the bloody traffic spawned by those who are going out to dinner, motels, and whatnot.

I've been writing quite a bit about my frustration with my love life lately. Those are bouts of loneliness that then I believed could be addressed by a companion or a partner or whatever it's called nowadays. That may be partially true. I've however managed to really ask my self if I have the energy or the emotional wherewithal to maintain a relationship at this point in my life. Honestly it seems that I can't. It's going to be a long explanation, but succinctly: I'm not ready for a relationship right now.

And I don't find anything wrong with that.

I've read quite a number a number of gay bloggers who are into relationships currently. Yes, do I feel a certain longing to experience the kind of happiness that they have. It certainly seems exciting. I should know, I've been there.

On the other hand, I've also read gay bloggers (mostly older ones) who have established parameters on how they see relationships. They chose to listen to how they feel about living unattached. Final verdict (at least according to them) is that they're happy still. Those I admire as well. I totally love their candor and honesty to say that there is bliss in being single. Most importantly, I have been getting some validation on the things I believe in but chose not to acknowledge before.

So there, I'm going to take it easy on my self. I'm not going to punish my self by endlessly comparing my loveless situation with other people. I'll find happiness in what I have (or don't have). If the right person comes along at the right time, surely I can reconsider. But for now, I'm going to celebrate being single.

Photo Credit: Roger Alcantara.

The Lost Weekend

Mel Gibson is sick. I'm not sure what he exactly wants to say by portraying things so violently in his movies. The Passion of the Christ was already unbearable to watch with all the gore and he even ups the ante with Apocalypto. I saw the latter last Friday and almost completely repressed memories of the film instantly. A supposedly good film loses all its credibility when all that you recall about it is the violence rather than the story. It seems that Mel Gibson will continue to challenge viewers with how much unnecessary gore we can take in movies. Bamboo rating: two.

Needless to say (as my weekends have been pretty predictable even to my self), I basked in front of the TV the entire weekend. I finally finished the first two seasons of Lost. You bet I'm very hungry for the next season. While the second season answered quite a number of questions from the first one, there are yet more mysteries that were introduced in it. The writers of the show do have a great challenge of tying all the countless loose ends that have yet to be explained. Oh, I heard the delicious Rodrigo Santoro is in the next season. Hay, that's enough reason for me to watch talaga.

I also saw L'Enfant (The Child) from Belgium and France, which won the Cannes Golden Palm in 2005. You'll never know what you can pick up at the Makati Cinema square these days, including Cannes winners noh? I had very high expectations for the film on account of the honor it reaped. I'm not exactly disappointed but again, it's a movie that would not cause me to make cartwheels in front of the screen. The acting is superb of course, ditto for the script, which completely avoided all the clichés. I could not help comparing it with Tsotsi, which also showed a child's role in bringing forth moral decisions as well. But L'Enfant chose to show that evolution as a slow process hinted at the end of the film. I'm giving this three and a half bamboos.

Last among the films I've seen in the weekend was The Painted Veil, starring Naomi Watts and Edward Norton who were both brilliant as a couple who went to a remote part of China to bring relief to a village plagued with cholera. The film reminds me of The African Queen and similar films about a woman transplanted in a different culture (maybe Indochine too). I don't think The Painted Veil said something new though. At least they did not make cultural judgments but on the one hand the couple's story had been told over and over again. Ultimately the movie is saved by its moving music, rich set design, and phenomenal cinematography. Of course the two main actors were more than a delight. The movie deserves three bamboos.

All right, I did not completely spend the entire weekend watching TV. I did yoga last Saturday. Yesterday my sister and I went to the Powerbooks sale where we pulled four books: a couple of David Sedaris, one book about Burma, and an Alan Holinghurst. After which we moved to Greenhills. My sister was buying all these blouses that look no different from the other ones she has already. Women and shopping, sometimes they don't make sense to me.

**
Photo Credit: (1), (3), and (4): IMDB; (2) lost.joj.sk

Friday, February 09, 2007

Currently Reading: The Last Time I Saw Mother

I was cleaning our bookshelf last weekend and realized that we haven't been replenishing our stock as much as we used to. Of course I've explained the reason for this a couple of entries back. Currently, I still have a backlog of around four books.

This is not really a good sign for me because I know I have more to gain from reading books than watching those damn TV series (although I would treat movies a little better).

So lately I tried organizing my TV and book sessions. By around 9:30 pm I see to it that I have turned off the TV and I'm nestled on my bed flipping through a book. It actually helps me sleep a bit earlier as well.

Right now I'm reading The Last Time I Saw Mother by Arlene Chai. I read one of her books called Eating Fire, Drinking Water last year courtesy of Meredel who lent me her copy. I enjoyed Eating Fire a lot; it reminds me of the interlocking stories of Jessica Haggedorn's Dogeaters.

The Last Time I Saw Mother
on the other hand is about the secrets that Caridad, the protagonist of the book, discovered on her homecoming. It's very reminiscent of Amy Tan's books about daughters' relationships with their mothers as well as Isabelle Allende's women surviving historical upheavals.

I haven't finished the book yet but I like the plot so far. On the other hand, there is a lack of richness in language because the author chose to focus on events rather than on emotions. Hopefully this changes as the book progresses.

I also like her perspective on the amalgam of Spanish, Filipino, American, and Chinese cultures in forming the Filipino psyche, thus bringing forth a rather confused but interesting and rich identity.

I'd definitely work on my Filipino authors from now on. It seems not fair that I've came across a good share of Western and Asian authors but not the literature of my country.

So far I've only read F. Sionil Jose among the more contemporary Filipino authors. I still need to read the works of say Nick Joaquin and… hmmm, I could not even name another one right now.

My MRT book (or the book that I read while riding the train to and from work) for the past weeks is Waiting by Ha Jin.

Set in Communist China, all the characters in the book do is wait. Wait for the man named Lin to get divorced so he can marry his girlfriend Mana. And it took him a dozen years (or so) to get the divorce.

It's definitely not my favorite books among the latest ones I've read. It's just too full of… waiting and at some point I wanted to throw the book in the middle of the tracks instead. Interestingly it won a National Book Award.

My MRT book at the moment is Future Shock by Alvin Toffler.

To address the lack of books at home, my sister and I are visiting the Powerbooks Sale this weekend.

Photo Credit: (1) and (2) Amazon.com

Ang Pagtatagpo, Bow

My younger brother's here in Manila for a field trip. He's studying I.T. at Siliman University in Dumaguete and last Tuesday he and his classmates arrived here to visit call centers, I.T. schools, some companies, and government agencies. I'm a bit skeptical about this "educational" trip because half of the time they spend it at Rockwell, Greenbelt, Greenhills, and MoA. They're even going to Tagaytay and Enchanted Kingdom for crying out loud.

My sister and I were happy to see him of course. The last time I saw him was over a year ago. He and my sister haven't seen each other for like two years or something.

God, he's obese... those were the first words that came into my mind when we picked him up at the hotel. Actually, he lost some weight already from the last time I saw him. But he's still bloody obese in my eyes (just like everybody else, probably unless they are Liya Kebede or Ai Tomiyaga or Jessica Stam). My sister said he's just big-boned. Fine.

Dwight is graduating in March, which explains my short trip to Dumaguete next month. He's planning to move to Cebu after graduation and work his ass off in some Japanese I.T. firm at sweatshop slash assembly line proportions.

The girlfriend is actually in Cebu, hence his choice for a city to work in. They've been together for five fucking years, an unimaginable length of time for a relationship if you ask me. Likewise, my sister has been with her boyfriend for about six years already. And the longest relationship I've had is eight months. I know, my siblings have boring lives.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

This Part of My Life is Called "Watching"

Around one year ago I was reading two books a week. But ever since that bloody TV came into our apartment a book usually stays beside my bed for nearly three weeks. Whereas I use to spend most of my time in the bookstore, now I mostly find my self at the Makati Cinema Square searching for movies in their vast collection of pirated DVDs.

I finally finished Queer as Folk last Friday, all five seasons of endless man-loving. God, I was relieved that all that's over. I was seriously getting dizzy over how gay men supposedly live, which is way too remote from my experiences.

Last Saturday I picked up my sister's copy of the first two seasons of Lost. I've heard what a big hit it is in the US (currently on its third season). Also, my sister is incessantly talking about it. Since I was not watching anything else I decided to go ahead and check it out. The verdict is: it's interesting but not enough to really make me do cartwheels in front of the TV.

The mix of characters is wicked and I'm always curious what their fate would be. But I just got bored with them eventually. Everybody wants to be a hero, so American! I'm annoyed at all the bloody drama. I just wanted to know how they are going to get off the fucking island, if ever they would. But alas that's the point of the series and from what I heard it does not have a resolution yet. The business of the series is to keep you watching it. Which is also the reason why I finished the entire first season last weekend and was still hungry for the second season. Oh well, I know I'm hooked.

Meanwhile, it's bamboo rating again for some of the movies I've watched lately…

Let's start with The Last Temptation of Christ, which is directed by Martin Scorcese (sp?). I was a bit skeptical about the film because what else do I need to know about Jesus anyway? Exactly how many movies does it take for us to know his story? But then I heard it has a different treatment compared with all the rest of the bunch, a rather irreverent angle I should say (thus it is banned in Catholic Philippines). Indeed the film is a complex and fresh take on the life of Jesus, how he was supposedly subjected to the clash of his divine and human sides. For religious people, it can be a challenge to their faith and for skeptics it is also provocative. And for me it is affirmative of my assumptions about Jesus (which I'm not discussing here). So I'm giving this film four of five bamboos.

I couldn't remember the last time I cried while watching a film. Honestly, I couldn't. But The Pursuit of Happyness made me cry a fucking bucket. Will Smith plays this character who is trying to support his son after his wife left him. The movie takes us to the different stages of his struggle to regain a decent life for him and his boy. Of course it's a cliché on one man's triumph over adversity blah blah blah. Thinking about it now, the film is bloody manipulative but still it made my cry so it earns three and a half bamboos.

Last night I watched Water, which is Canada's entry to the Oscars this year and eventually became one of the five nominees for the Best Foreign Language Film category. It's interesting how it is Canada's entry while the movie is set entirely in India and made by Indians. A Canadian film outfit apparently is one of the producers. (I think it's the same case with Scent of Green Papaya, a film set in Vietnam but was tagged as the French entry in the Oscars several years back.)

It has a very heavy subject of a child bride who was widowed when she was eight and had to live in this house for widows (a better option rather than joining her dead husband in his funeral pyre or marrying her husband's brother). It was fucking depressing but is a wonderful eye opener about the treatment of women in a different culture. It also tackles religious fundamentalism, hence a good take-off for a sociological and anthropological discussion. The film is set in 1938 when India was struggling with getting independence from the British. Thus it has a number of references to the political and cultural changes that the country was undergoing at that time. I should say this is one of the most enlightening films I've seen recently, so I'm giving it a five.

Films to watch next: The Painted Veil, Apocalypto, Citizen Kane, and L'enfant.

Photo Credit: (1) Words from Here, (2) Filmforce, (3) Universumfilm.

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